1. eight p.m. sunset ends this academic year made it to summer 2. thunderstorm iris ignites hope in charcoal soul rise from the ashes 3. antifragile heart stronger fortress with each blow that doesn’t kill me 4. writing a new book blank canvas with no limits the next life begins 5. so what if i fall? bounce back higher than ever ricochet, live on 6. teardrops like gold dust mend a life path in pieces kintsugi future 7. suddenly today is here, already midnight amber insomnia 8. too much stuff at home ten plastic bags to donate swedish death cleaning 9. grateful phoenix cries no longer in a cage of my own making 10. on the cusp of hope waiting for the next spring day blooming by myself 11. for the first time I want the sun to burn my wings freedom for failure 12. finals week ritual eleventh circle of hell all over again 13. time to love yourself more than anyone before has ever loved you 14. nonrefundable one-way ticket to the next crazy adventure 15. 혼자 있는 밤 생각 보다 괞찮다 기다리지 마 16. eleven miles, trails in mist: another run to the ocean and back 17. someday, all this will be over and shift to a new equilibrium 18. flowers and compost on the land of my body just inter-being 19. N muni westbound necks craned down at black mirrors motionless adults 20. meals we’ll never share continents left unexplored late night talks erased 21. take a look around embrace this moment, since we won’t be here for long 22. cooking together crispy asparagus with tearful gratitude 23. penultimate days savor normal life before jumping off the cliff 24. summer in sf deceivingly cold, i wear windbreakers in june 25. looping playlist of what if’s: all the songs that won’t remind you of me 26. started drinking tea again, alishan oolong before 10 a.m. 27. sweltering weeknights reading novels alone in someone else’s house 28. half empty, half full foggy afternoon denial a first love in flames 29. if you leave, please let me go peacefully and know how much I loved you 30. sudden silence falls relax into solitude lifetime companion 31. death by a thousand dreams deferred: not another no, not yet, never. 32. how many more times can a heart break, mend itself, and shatter once more? 33. stability: first a paperweight, dumbbell, now sandbag on my soul 34. this city a home no more. return to transience, liminal motion